February 14th, 2007 I will be taking my driving license test in Lancaster...whoo hooo

I work as at Abercrombie and Fitch...as a manager in training...it just may be the best job i could ever ask for...

I am subleasing a friend's apartment a few blocks from my job

I work a 8-5 but it's not behind a desk or boring and useless...i get to surround myself with great people

I have a best friend who i am on the phone with now..hee hee hey best

This just may be the BEST YEAR OF MY LIFE!!!

Thank you for anyone who ever prayed for me

Thank you for anyone who was ever there for me

thank you, thank you, thank you

I have a job...

I have a job that may lead to a career...

This year I plan on...

 living on my own...

 rebuilding my credit...

DRIVING!!...

like let's just be honest...that alone is enough to send a deaf man shouting...

I know i know, it is something i should have master by now, but hey baby steps

I made great new friends

been distanced from other ones

grew closer to other ones

funny how life happens

MY NAME IS JAMILLA AND I AM AN ADULT (weird)

SO, I asked  God why I was such a failure...I MEAN...every place that I've been to I've left feeling like I made the atmosphere WORSE than it's original state!!  bHere I am feeling like the worlds BIGGEST loser because I'm a college graduate who DOESN'T have a license, who DOESN'T have a car, DOESN'T have a place to call her own, and DOESN'T even have good CREDIT...BIGGEST LOSER RIGHT...

THEN...

THe Holy Spirit deposited something so sweet in my spirit...He said "Jamilla, YOU are a restorer!! I have sent you to these places to restore families to each other, to themselves, to rebuild, to restore connections that were before lost, to bring back what was old and making something beautiful in return..." God told me that I don't have to WAIT until I have my own place to find stability...PAUL SAYS he is content whether in want or in plenty...AND HERE I AM THINKING ABOUT ALL THAT I DON'T HAVE...and all the IF ONLYS...God assured me that I am just where I need to be

THEN...

Out of no where, I went from feeling like a complete FAILURE...to feeling like a woman with PURPOSE...a woman who is flawed, and yet willing to admit those flaws which frees others to look at their own...MAN God really DOES KNOW WHAT HE IS DOING...